♥2009♥

my 2009.

napakasarap ng feeling!!

napakasaya!!

for me to really experienced that 3 days whole shine fest experience..

we're so blessed.

that experience will be treasured 4ever.

hmmm.. in the past weeks, were really struggling and having hard times b4 shinefest but now

GOD is so GOOD!!! all the time!!

HE let us learned from it a lot.. na in our own mistakes.. dun kami nagmamature. .

un. 1st day..

grabeh. pagdating namin sa AFC di namin alam kung sang track kami. haha. naisip ko nalang dance.. :) for a change. wehe.

i'm still discovering what really is the talent GOD had given me.. i love music but i think music doesn't love me.. :) feeling ko music is not for me talaga. whenever i will sing as a song leader di ko mabigay ung best worship for the congregation.. :C

kaya minsan i feel hindi muna mag praktis.. :) relax relax muna sa mall.

waha. my heart is with the kids.. it's really my joy to share sa mga bata the WORD OF GOD. it brings me joy and contentment sa heart ko everytime i see them listening to me na i know GOD works and somedayn they will use their talents for GOD alone. ♥

i chose dance. for a change.. gusto ko i try.. and un. nag work naman.. maganda, masaya, magaling ang mga teachers talaga.. :) den kasama pa kami sa production na di ko expect na ganun.. haha. ung heart ko masaya na parang sinasabi nya everything will be fine. na feeling ko mali mali moves ko.. :) marami naman nagsasabi na ok naman daw sayaw ko.. haha. and un marami kaming nameet, new friends, sharing ng experiences hanggang 2 am..

iba talaga ung feeling na ung environment mo surrounded with the spirit of GOD. na you will really feel blessed and positive thoughts talaga lahat..

2nd day umuwi ako mag isa. waha. :) saya saya from baclaran.. un nung concert .. grabeh. dami ng tao.. kakaba. hay.. natapos naman ng maayos.. really nice experience na talagang nasa treasure box ko..

love u LORD!!! awesome GOD!!

we give u the highest praise!!! ♥

m0m.

mY greateSt m0m.

the day my mom gave birth on me..
since then i knew i brought them j0y.

GOd gave me this not so perfect family but always happy.

i love my mom so much.
i can't imagine my life without her on my side.
i remember when she needed to go to Cagayan
and we all knew its so far.
i insisted. i needed to go with her.
but then she said "no, u stay here."
she had to be alone together
with other members in our church..
when she left, we all cried.
it feels like we don't know when can we
see her again.
i cried every night without her presence at home.

i always cry cause i misses her so much.
it put me on tears on how is she doing there..
i realize all the hardships, the
headaches i put on her whenever
im not in my not-so-good mood.

and all our fights, misunderstandings.
i miss it every time i remember m0m.

I WISH SHE WAS WITH ME FOREVER.

when im still in my childhood years..
i got jealous everytime we had activity at school and
i had no one with me.
when all my classmates are with their m0m.
i remember when i g0t the medal
i've been trying so hard to get and to really
make m0m pr0ud.
i want her to put it in my neck but then
she is not there at all.. ♥

lovelovelove.
xx
x0x0
:)
mwaah.♥♥♥

dAd.

mY dAd.

im hapi seeing my dad being happy whenever
i make him proud of what i just accomplished.
though we don't have that closer relationship,
still i feel connected with him all the time.
i feel guilty whenever i make mistakes that he
sees on me. it makes me feel im not a perfect
daughter he wants me to be and i always feel sorry.

* i want him to see me doing things happily
without regretting wrong decisions in the enD.*
i love my dad so much.
its really hard for a dad to just put her daughter away.
and i always feel that.
and i always want him to feel
i will never disappoint him..
all the expectations he had for me
i want it to happen all succesfully..
being the only girl is just so harD.
and i knew GOD has a perfect pLan.

love u dad,
ur j0y.
♥

♥cHurcH♥

in churcH..

i always wwnted to be active in church..
i really wishes still to know how
to play instruments ..
and how i wish i had all gifts and talents..
but then i enjoyed everytime
we are all very happy
laughing till no tomorrow..
all the talks..
meaningfuL.
so wonderfuL..

*i had all the best-est people
in the whole widE worLd!!..
i love them!!!
i know all my friends in our church
will still be my friends till the end of timE..
♥
my hapineSs.

thanks GuysS..
:)
bexborougH.

br0s.

my tw0 brotheRs..

even if we sometimes get into fights,
im hapi i have them in my life.
that sometimes it feels awkward that
they do silly things on their own
forgetting what other people
might say.
the bond that we build is not as high
as my closest friends are
but we do love each other.
we get high tempered
and throwing damn words but still
they respect and love as a girl is.

but then,
i wish i had a little sister.
a cute little sister that i can always
count on.
we can play together dolls..
be with each other
always and forever.. :)

loveLy.
bexborougH.

embracinG: my gorgeous haLf.

embracinG: my gorgeous haLf.

my gorgeous haLf.

i wish i can call him my "...." (secret na muna- na forgot k0h ee..)

i know he's the one GOD planned to be with me forever.
a lifetime partner indeed my gorgeous half.
i'm not into physical but its important that he cares for himself xempre..
na hindi nya pinapabayaan sarili nya ..
and i still will love him kahit ano pa mangyari..
basta he knows who is his priorities..
for me and for our family..
i want my kids to grow that they relly proud of what we've accomplished.
that they will say "i want to be like my mom.. and my dad"..

i know it can't be perfet but in our hearts we are all pefect in GOD's eyes.. ♥

mY kekZ..

message for my lovely kekangZ..

i love y0u kekZ so mucH..
we are always as happy as lovE..
they made me show my true real side and have that confidence all the time..
but still, through ups and downs, thick and thin..
we never leave each other..
they love me for who i am..
care for me like we are real sisters with a same blood and
bongga!!..
we really are..
my college life became more meaningful
cause i've met them..
and God made it super best.
thanks..
mwaah.
lovelovelove..
:))

"two of mE"

i never thought i'd find myself

the day that i find you.

plans for only

one for me

our future plans for two.

soulmates in this universe.

that makes the world surreal

for when i'd given up on dreams

you showed me love is real.

and now that all my love for u

will never cease to grow,

please take me in your

loving arms

and never let me go.

by ANNE G. FEGELY

♥bExborougH♥

j0y

mostLy..

"mostly i dream about being with you forever.."

his expression changed, softened and saddened by the subtle ache in my voice..

"Bella," his fingers lightly traced the chape of my lips.

"i will stay with you-isn't that enough?"

he frowned at my tenacity.

no one was going to surrender tonight.

he exhaled, and the sound was practically a growl.

i touched his face.

"look," i said.

"i love you more than everything else in the world. isn't that enough?"

"yes, it is enough," he answered, smiling.

"enough for forever."

and he leaned down to press his cold lips once more to my throat ....

one of my favorite lines.. ♥

hihA..

aHmn..
gosh..
filing better now..
kasi these past few days i feel really weak..
supEr ubo!!..
in the hospital filing tlga..
:))
but im glad..
so glad...
its fine now..


♥
its my bday na pla..
1 month nalang..
arG.
hassLe.
stress ha..
pLurkinG..
gosH..




♥
i cant play pet soc..
kainis kahapon..
sana nasave cya..
c=

ll..

mY pEt..
LovE LovE..
♥

nyAy.

hir i am..
im not in the mood lately..
had no time to go out..
busy busyhan..
har.


loving choclates again..
hay.


i love church..
♥

so big.

hassle.
daming problems.
struggle tlga.
ewan.
friends.
family.
relationships.
GOD.


ano b ms mhlga..
di akoh makapag decide ng tma.

i need help.
need a break.
grabeh..
sleepless nyts now..




kahpon grabeh.

lovelife and ol.
ayoko ng maramdaman ang pinaka mahirap na part ng buhay koh.
its so complicated.

janina i had a great time wid mom.
un..
kahapon tlga sobra.

iyak to the max.
im so weak.




i feel GOd wants me to grow..
to be in a next level part ng pananampalataya koh..
challenges..
i want to sing.. be the leader.
bff challenged me.
har.
now im in fire and i dont want to lose it..





♥i know i can.
i can make it through..
GOd's help, and my friendS.


love u friends!!..


♥

ouHHhhH....

grabeh..

im not bitter naman..

his losT.

kaya ko bang mag move on..


ka2yanin koh xempre..

if were meant then were meant for each other..

after years and years..


pinaglalaban ko naman ee..



un.

GOd will help me..

thanks for the good memories..


single time you make me hapi naman..




a lot has changed. :D
if she can make him happy den they deserve it..
may God bless them.. ♥



im gonna find someone someday hu might actually treat mne well..
i am my own princess.. its too late to catch me now..=c

yestErdAy.

kahapon ung grabeh..


hay..


iba mood..
my mood swings and un..


affected lahat..


sori p0h..


naman...



papa and mama..
a big fight..

i feel it..

grabeh..

un.
di na cya sumagot sa txt k0h ha.


amf.


un.

den sabi k0h di k0 na cya c0l kanina misscol..

miss k0h na cya ee..
nyay!


un.

ewan ko..

mahal k0h tlga cya..

kita naman kami tom..
busy lang cya sa training..


:D


g0!! ..

ohhhh

mY kEkAnGZZ

mY c0usinS.. cAnaDa n cLa.. misS dEm..



cm0n.
thE bEsT feeLInG..












♥ my b. icE.

roller coaster..

its been a super long roller coaster ride for me and where are me now..
kaya pa naman..
hehe..

hay..
dami ng nangyari and so marami pang mangyayari..
arg.


so sick na koh ..
hay..
am i emo?
ma drama lang..

xempre i want to be a dramatic actress someday..
hehe..
just as of now..
lets take it slow..
slowly and surely db..
har har..

hEya..

plurk..
and twittEr..
grAbeH..
so fUn..
hihi..





aMfY..
so h0t in hErE..
grAbEh..
uN.
mJ in thE h0usE..
sUpER..
mP3 k0h bnLik n riN..
hEkhEk..
dEn intErnEt na n0w..
prActicE p L8r..
uN..
mrminG nkitA hA..

rEd anD rEd..
ibA n primaRy nyA..
b.
mY bAbE.
h0nEYbAbE..
miSs hiM dEarLY..
hAr..




kAadicT n nMan.

a biG brEak ..

having my break now..
d2 sa ofis ni ate ..
har..
di nagcmba ..
hihi..
b.

love it hir ..
so much fun ..
so gaganda ng mga ppol ..



petsa na naman ako nakaslip ..
my zits ..
un ..
pra ngang d nkslip ..
ngcng bgla nung paalis na cla mama ..
un ..
ako na lang naiwan ..
har.
enjoyin ko lang 2 ..
syang lang mga bagong pix ..
wid familys ..
di nakita umalis ni abi ..
my pera ako..
yei.. ♥

iSh.

mag cry b k0h..
na namn..
imbis na gumawa ng assign sa electro..
ng fs k p kc..
my g0sH..
m2ty na k0h..
cant help it..
wat im gonna do?!..










♥

my b.

my b.
my love.
my life.

nung tinanong ako ni pastor..

wow..

grabeh..

hirap ha..

sabi koh nalang..

am..

hingi nalang ako ng help kay God..

pray ako den hingi ako ng wisdom kung ano b tlga kelangan kong gawin..

harhar..

sa ganung sitwasyon..

hirap tlga..

sabi nya break na agad..

am..

xempre di muna..

if u really love that person..

bibigyan mo cya ng chance..

everybody deserves a second chance naman..

♥♥♥

joy.=)

L.O.V.E ..

wAtS LovE?
-for me its a speciaL feelinG for someonE ..
riLy riLy spEciAL ..

LovE iS GOd.
-love God abovE 0L.

LovE yourSeLf.
-learn to love yourseLf. value evry single moment in your life.
cherish it. be hapi.


LOvE anD LivE youR LifE to thE fULLEsT. ♥
fr0m mY atE riANnE ..







mY b.

s0 ..

w0w ..
tryinG t0 bE skinnY ..
g0sH ..
aFtEr nG bdAy ni mAmA ..
y0k0 nA kUmAin nG ch0c0L8s ..
sUpEr ..
fAt k0h nA kC ..
supEr ang fEb 1 ..
fEb iBg ..
witH dEm ..
cAnT hAndLe iT wiD cArE ..
hAd ouR dEvoti0n kNinA ..
anD LAb mY m0m ..
m0m ..
iM s0rY im not a pErFecT dAughtER ..
Lab yhA ..
midTerM n nMan ..
cArEer ..
kyA g0!
riZal anD cALcULUS ..

mY sUpEr kEkAngZ .. LOvE thEm .. ♥

bongGanG 2008 ..

what a great year 2008 is for me ..
realizations, suprises, new experiences, new lessons learned .. things learned ..
a lot tlga ..
den un ..
thankful pa rin ako dahil di ako pinapabayaan ni God ..
my heavenly father ..
i know that im a child of God and that will never changed ..
hay ..
lots of pressures, stress, lahat lahat na ..
un ..
im grateful ..
there are not enough words para masabi ko lahat lahat ..
im so thankful lang talaga ..
natapos ng maayos ang 2008 koh ..
*sana ito ung sinabi ko kahapon sa sharing namin ..*
hay ..
un ..
n0w ..
im expecting a lot from 2009 ..
i need a change ..
s0 much change physically ..
mentally .. emotionally ..
spiritual healing ..
un ..
i just hope this year really had a right time for me ..
naaaaahhhhhh ..
i just want enjoy this year ..
enjoy being myself ..
peace and happiness!! yeah ..
for my debut ..
i want it to be special ..
to be fun ..
for me to be myself ..
nyaaaaa ..
nuff said! ..
hehe ..
yeah yeah yeah ..
papasok p koh ..
para ngang gusto kong magpalate ..
hihi ..
sir caspe lang naman ..
rizal and rizal ..
hmmmm ..