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MONDAY, MARCH 8, 2010

misery loves company

she doesn't deserve to get torn into pieces especially by the both of you. her heart is full of purity and happiness which makes your days seem so much brighter so why couldn't you spare her the misery? it wasn't his fault but he could've avoided the gestures. does he not know those kind of things make a girl fall for a guy?



how they had known each other so roughly but the way he spoke to her was so sweetly.



how he wrote quotes in her birthday card that made her melt.



how he got her a childrens book that happened to be one from her childhood memories and wrote a message along the side of it.



how he ordered that one cute book, wrote a letter inside and highlighted his favourite parts.



how he would text her and ask if they could meet up after a lecture.



she just got over one obstacle that took her almost two years, now she's got you to worry about. she keeps on saying that she knows she'll be fine but we can't worry about the future so much and how we'll feel in it.. we need to live the moment. we need to notice what is happening now because if we look too much into the future then how are we supposed to learn from the past?

you'd expect that someone you've known for around a decade or more would care more for your feelings compared to someone they've known for a few months. that they'd have enough decency to spare a river of agony even if it means they'll hurt you a little.

3.3.2010 "In My Mind" by.. her.

you're all i ever think about
you're my past, my present, my future
yesterday feels like today, and i cant wait until tomorrow
because i know you'll be there on my mind.

it's funny because you have no clue who i am..or maybe you do..
but our words are mere whispers
floating through time and space.

isn't it silly how you make me feel,
when there is still so much more to be had?
Yet, i cant help but smile when i hear you name,
and i cant help but blush when i see your face.

i dont know what i want.. all i can do is think..
think of you.. and dream of what it would be like if i were the one in yours.

you make my dreams so sweet
and you seem so divine, in a sense that we could just sit togethr in silence and forget about the world.

i think i may be crazy for letting myself ponder and feel this way,but it's nice to know that my feelings are safe.

if you never know then you cannot be hurt,
but if you never tell them..who knows what you're missing?

girl.as for you, remember that you'll always have me. that i know exactly what you're going through, i'm in this with you and we'll get through it together no matter how long it takes. denial won't help either, but i know we'll deny all we can except when it comes to each other. we didn't ask for it, sometimes these things just happen. i don't know what to do either but we'll discover ways to overcome it all. remember just let it happen.. don't hold back the tears because one day you would've cried it all out and you'll come to a point where there'll be something that reminds you of him and you won't even shed a tear. you are the most beautiful person inside and out to be walking on this earth. don't hold your head down for too long, you might miss out on the rainbows and butterflies. love you always xx

i dont know how to talk to you.

1.its kind of sad that you always doubted my ability. that you said not to do this cos i should trust you that its too hard. its sad that i needed to listen to you at that moment. that i couldnt make my own decision. i wish you were more supportive, please be supportive to the next. feeling like you have no where to fall back on especially when you have 'someone' is the worst. its pretty much having a ghost waiting to catch you when you fall. pointless.

2. its kind of sad that i gave you the benefit of the doubt and still proved otherwise. that you said this but did another instead. its sad how i was so happy then but a few days later drown in pity of myself. that now not even a syllable is dropped between us. lost total connection.

3. its intriguing how much i know you yet at the same time don't know you. its fascinating how there's so much mystery, and how long i know it'll linger for. the way we just click, unfortunately many do that too-- "just click". i guess its different. this is only the seed of what may sprout.

hello 1,2 and 3.. you're the current 3 that make it all interesting somehow.

hayyyy. recovering from my sore eyes.. myillness. eeewwww. :((

:((

huhu.. :(( sadsadsad. just deactivate my account in fb.. aun. hirap.. huhu.. ate danna, elaine. ;) haaayy. woke up.. di makita fone then 8 am go to school at 10am andun na.. hahay. and den, volleyball nila.. support kami. aha, my camera.. take a lots of pics.. haha. eeerrrr. then we really enjoyed. so funfunfun. arjay, denni.. hay. hirap.. masaya, malungkot. sakit. :(( iyak. iyak ng iyak.. then really enjoyed watching their volleyball game. nyaha.. then rest. eat! sarap.yummy.. eat and eat. haha.. lovelove. ♥

super yummy.. not full. then un.. tambay.. adik, nahuli pa ko sa jail booth.. aha. so.. sabi kasi may swimming then, grrr. nakapasok din naman.. vote vote. ;)

nyerr.

then... pa cute. haha. adik lang.. txt ng txt.. ;) haha.. picture picture.. then buti naisip ni cindy mag net.. aun. naka ol c elaine.. haha. then mark, eli, dennis.. ;)

weeee.. init. grabeh. naka 2 hours.. then naka upload na rin ng pics.. haha. :) eeeerrrr.

gail. ivan. lahat cla.. c ate.. aun. kamusta naman.. eli mukhang elaine.. grrrrr. kainis na. amf..

then

gala sa festival.. then xsite.. off to southmall.. bili watsons.. ubos na naman money.. haha. ;) errrr.

adik talaga cindy, ness. wyerrrr.

:((((((

sadsadsad. pag uwi.. c elaine.. naghanda kamusta naman.. haha.

aun. kumain ako sa kanila.. buti cla lang.. la mama nya. aun.. chikahan.. nasabi ko na rin..

waahhh!!

the biggest revelation of all..

arggg....

and un. tawa ako ng tawa.. ayoko na umiyak..haha. daniel. maymay. kcbabe. ada.. waaaha

;)

and un. txt2.

ayoko na ng distractions!!!!

LORD GOD help me!! give me strength.. to put me in greater heights.. hmmmm.

if it's meant to me,then it's meant. if it's not, then no.

pray,pray and pray!!

GOD BLESS US ALL!! I LOVE YOU LORD!! ♥

naiyak ako.. hmm.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rWPABE3gycs

"one of the most touching songs" naiiyak ako, don't know why.. hmmm.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UXCoHxX1OC8

"hosanna in the highest".. ivan.ivan.ivan. heeeeelp

awww.

:( just had our meeting in sm.. aun. :) cute with bff.. haha. bonding time with her is so fun.

starbucks agad pagdating dun then un.. ahaha

ate lunch.. ubos pera.. waha. kamusta naman un.. lagot na. (: had my necklace again.

then tagal nila.. pics,pics. :)

and un.

:)))) kwentuhan about our loves. lifes. nyay

haaaay. ate camille.

she tell us..

that she needed to resigned being the "area 1 rep"

then..

ahahaha.. she knows me. awwww.

i had a feeling, that LORD GOD will really help me a lot with it and so praypraypray. ^_^

then ivan.dennis.

:)

aya miguel.. we chat. ow. miss him.

j ♥

Here I am
And I been thinking about you lately
Hold my hand
Cause I been missing you like crazy

my prom dream come true!!!! ♥

i never went to any prom. not when i was a junior, not when i was a senior, not at any other schools' prom. i had issues with my then-boyfriend that caused me to miss this major event in a high school kids' life.

my prom dream come true!!!! ♥

i never went to any prom. not when i was a junior, not when i was a senior, not at any other schools' prom. i had issues with my then-boyfriend that caused me to miss this major event in a high school kids' life.

i never went to any prom..

til i was 26 yeamy prom dream come true!!!! ♥




i never went to any prom. not when i was a junior, not when i was a senior, not at any other schools' prom. i had issues with my then-boyfriend that caused me to miss this major event in a high school kids' life.

i never went to any prom..

til i was 26 years old.. :))))

vince is the program director for football at feu-fern, and because he was invited as faculty, he asked me to be his date. it was such a dream come true!!!! so much so that i immediately called one of my favorite designers, joey samson, to rush a gown for me, and one of my favorite make up artists, steven doloso, to do my make up for me, and my hair stylist for a decade now, alex carbonell, to do my hair. hahaha, CAREER! well, its a dream come true right? so why not a dream team to help fix me up too? i think it was all worth it because when vince saw me all dolled up, all he was able to say was, "WOW." aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaw.. that moment made all the preparations worth it. :) and of course i will say that vince looked amazing in his randy ortiz suit. :)

of course, we had the obligatory "full body prom photo before leaving the house". :pmy prom dream come true!!!! ♥




i never went to any prom. not when i was a junior, not when i was a senior, not at any other schools' prom. i had issues with my then-boyfriend that caused me to miss this major event in a high school kids' life.

i never went to any prom..

til i was 26 years old.. :))))

vince is the program director for football at feu-fern, and because he was invited as faculty, he asked me to be his date. it was such a dream come true!!!! so much so that i immediately called one of my favorite designers, joey samson, to rush a gown for me, and one of my favorite make up artists, steven doloso, to do my make up for me, and my hair stylist for a decade now, alex carbonell, to do my hair. hahaha, CAREER! well, its a dream come true right? so why not a dream team to help fix me up too? i think it was all worth it because when vince saw me all dolled up, all he was able to say was, "WOW." aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaw.. that moment made all the preparations worth it. :) and of course i will say that vince looked amazing in his randy ortiz suit. :)

of course, we had the obligatory "full body prom photo before leaving the house". :prs old.. :))))

vince is the program director for football at feu-fern, and because he was invited as faculty, he asked me to be his date. it was such a dream come true!!!! so much so that i immediately called one of my favorite designers, joey samson, to rush a gown for me, and one of my favorite make up artists, steven doloso, to do my make up for me, and my hair stylist for a decade now, alex carbonell, to do my hair. hahaha, CAREER! well, its a dream come true right? so why not a dream team to help fix me up too? i think it was all worth it because when vince saw me all dolled up, all he was able to say was, "WOW." aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaw.. that moment made all the preparations worth it. :) and of course i will say that vince looked amazing in his randy ortiz suit. :)

of course, we had the obligatory "full body prom photo before leaving the house". :p
i never went to any prom..

til i was 26 years old.. :))))

vince is the program director for football at feu-fern, and because he was invited as faculty, he asked me to be his date. it was such a dream come true!!!! so much so that i immediately called one of my favorite designers, joey samson, to rush a gown for me, and one of my favorite make up artists, steven doloso, to do my make up for me, and my hair stylist for a decade now, alex carbonell, to do my hair. hahaha, CAREER! well, its a dream come true right? so why not a dream team to help fix me up too? i think it was all worth it because when vince saw me all dolled up, all he was able to say was, "WOW." aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaw.. that moment made all the preparations worth it. :) and of course i will say that vince looked amazing in his randy ortiz suit. :)

of course, we had the obligatory "full body prom photo before leaving the house". :p





i can't believe the invitation had our names on it! i was sooo kilig. i felt so high school all over again. as in i actually felt a little nervous that moment before stepping out of the car and that moment before stepping into the venue!





vince had six scholars for football who attended that prom, all from out of manila, and so we all helped put together outfits for the boys. vince sponsored their white polos, they all got their suits and ties from a rental, and i'm sooo thankful to converse for sponsoring their super cool leather high cut chuck taylors!! they looked so cool decked out in suits but casual in chucks!!

i actually also felt half feeling, and half left out, kasi hindi na pala uso ang full long gown to proms nowadays?! hahaha! 95% of the girls were in cocktail dresses! i stuck out like a sore thumb in my black ball gown, but then i felt like a princess. so that was okay. hahaha.





being around a decade older than these high school kids, of course there was no chance we could win "prom king and queen".. hahaha. (asa pa! but honestly, yes umasa ako ng slight! :p hahaha!) but the next best thing happened, because although we couldn't win it, we did give out the award for "prom king and queen"!!!! that isn't us slow dancing in the photo, but then during the second slow song, vince asked me to dance my first slow dance everrrrrr.... :)))) (sorry cheesyyyy!)





more than just us enjoying, we had so much fun watching the boys have fun. they're all from different provinces in the country, and this was their first "glamorous" event ever, and it was awesome seeing them enjoying themselves! it was especially awesome to see one of the most shy boys, nash, ask this cute girl he likes, to slow dance with him. aaaaaaaaaaaw....





thank you for sharing my first ever prom experience with me!!!! :p cheers to many more firsts! despite being years late, it really is never too late to have a "first". :)

ahihi

♥♥♥

:))

ivan.ivan.ivan.

mark.mark.mark.

dennis.dennis.dennis.

waaaaha.. just change my surname into alba. yeah fave. :))) aun.. saya!! ;)) pampanga is the best!! the hot air!!

feb 13, 2010

ivan..

dennis

sundee

elaine

mark

eli

bob

me

wahahaha..

funfunfun.

really tired and wants a good power nap sleep!!

but still waiting for my cafe world foods.. haha. and my kuya is still not home.. ;))

my january 2010

january 2010 passed by.. :)) ey and grabeh, i've been in a agggh again.. :))

start my year right.. :)) read, meditate scriptures of the bible

then

there's dennis.

and

elaine.. hmmm. my gff.

ivan.. :))

ayan.. no need to explain.. it's 3:25 am and mom will woke up 4 am and get mad na naman. haha loveyha mom..

hmmmm.

cry again.. hay. di ako makapag share.

now.. its hard to tell what it really means.. :(

na i've met someone who unexpectedly come into my life and now di ko na alam..

i want to know him more.. makes me feel na cya un that im praying to GOD na cya na talaga..

:(

di ko na alam.. gusto ko maging open pero now parang hard ee..

i feel hard now.

dumating cya sa buhay ko unexpectedly and now i miss him like crazy.. those little times we have makes me to know him more.

gusto ko na makilala pa cya.. may dumating sayong isang tao and gusto mo na sa kanya ka lang..

all my life, i've always wish na like now.. then if it GOD's will.. then it is.

na makilala mo ung isang tao na hindi mo inaasahan na ito na nga.. :)) i feel pain. it feels like di ko alam kung ireready ko ang sarili ko for love..

gusto ko na magkaroon ng bf and now i met him.. makes me feel special. umiiyak again.. :( my guy na gusto ko na lagi kong kasama.. lagi kaming mag kausap.. na ma feel ko ung longingness ko sa kanya.. na may space dito 4 him.. and i want him now.

i miss "him".. :)

recently lang kami nag kakilala and now... :) kilig.

haha. i don't know why but he come up with and ask little things and then it started. :)

then the next day "he asked for my #.. :) haha. i gave it naman agad. waha. den un..

he's a really good dancer to know and to known him for a little time is really amazing..

ibang experienced nung 2009.. and i think GOD has really his works on us..

YOU have to wait for his time.. GOD's perfect time and you will see.. HE WILL GIVE ALL YOUR HEART'S DESIRES!!! ♥♥♥

bexborough