hmmmm.

cry again.. hay. di ako makapag share.

now.. its hard to tell what it really means.. :(

na i've met someone who unexpectedly come into my life and now di ko na alam..

i want to know him more.. makes me feel na cya un that im praying to GOD na cya na talaga..

:(

di ko na alam.. gusto ko maging open pero now parang hard ee..

i feel hard now.

dumating cya sa buhay ko unexpectedly and now i miss him like crazy.. those little times we have makes me to know him more.

gusto ko na makilala pa cya.. may dumating sayong isang tao and gusto mo na sa kanya ka lang..

all my life, i've always wish na like now.. then if it GOD's will.. then it is.

na makilala mo ung isang tao na hindi mo inaasahan na ito na nga.. :)) i feel pain. it feels like di ko alam kung ireready ko ang sarili ko for love..

gusto ko na magkaroon ng bf and now i met him.. makes me feel special. umiiyak again.. :( my guy na gusto ko na lagi kong kasama.. lagi kaming mag kausap.. na ma feel ko ung longingness ko sa kanya.. na may space dito 4 him.. and i want him now.

i miss "him".. :)

recently lang kami nag kakilala and now... :) kilig.

haha. i don't know why but he come up with and ask little things and then it started. :)

then the next day "he asked for my #.. :) haha. i gave it naman agad. waha. den un..

he's a really good dancer to know and to known him for a little time is really amazing..

ibang experienced nung 2009.. and i think GOD has really his works on us..

YOU have to wait for his time.. GOD's perfect time and you will see.. HE WILL GIVE ALL YOUR HEART'S DESIRES!!! ♥♥♥

bexborough

♥2009♥

my 2009.

napakasarap ng feeling!!

napakasaya!!

for me to really experienced that 3 days whole shine fest experience..

we're so blessed.

that experience will be treasured 4ever.

hmmm.. in the past weeks, were really struggling and having hard times b4 shinefest but now

GOD is so GOOD!!! all the time!!

HE let us learned from it a lot.. na in our own mistakes.. dun kami nagmamature. .

un. 1st day..

grabeh. pagdating namin sa AFC di namin alam kung sang track kami. haha. naisip ko nalang dance.. :) for a change. wehe.

i'm still discovering what really is the talent GOD had given me.. i love music but i think music doesn't love me.. :) feeling ko music is not for me talaga. whenever i will sing as a song leader di ko mabigay ung best worship for the congregation.. :C

kaya minsan i feel hindi muna mag praktis.. :) relax relax muna sa mall.

waha. my heart is with the kids.. it's really my joy to share sa mga bata the WORD OF GOD. it brings me joy and contentment sa heart ko everytime i see them listening to me na i know GOD works and somedayn they will use their talents for GOD alone. ♥

i chose dance. for a change.. gusto ko i try.. and un. nag work naman.. maganda, masaya, magaling ang mga teachers talaga.. :) den kasama pa kami sa production na di ko expect na ganun.. haha. ung heart ko masaya na parang sinasabi nya everything will be fine. na feeling ko mali mali moves ko.. :) marami naman nagsasabi na ok naman daw sayaw ko.. haha. and un marami kaming nameet, new friends, sharing ng experiences hanggang 2 am..

iba talaga ung feeling na ung environment mo surrounded with the spirit of GOD. na you will really feel blessed and positive thoughts talaga lahat..

2nd day umuwi ako mag isa. waha. :) saya saya from baclaran.. un nung concert .. grabeh. dami ng tao.. kakaba. hay.. natapos naman ng maayos.. really nice experience na talagang nasa treasure box ko..

love u LORD!!! awesome GOD!!

we give u the highest praise!!! ♥

m0m.

mY greateSt m0m.

the day my mom gave birth on me..
since then i knew i brought them j0y.

GOd gave me this not so perfect family but always happy.

i love my mom so much.
i can't imagine my life without her on my side.
i remember when she needed to go to Cagayan
and we all knew its so far.
i insisted. i needed to go with her.
but then she said "no, u stay here."
she had to be alone together
with other members in our church..
when she left, we all cried.
it feels like we don't know when can we
see her again.
i cried every night without her presence at home.

i always cry cause i misses her so much.
it put me on tears on how is she doing there..
i realize all the hardships, the
headaches i put on her whenever
im not in my not-so-good mood.

and all our fights, misunderstandings.
i miss it every time i remember m0m.

I WISH SHE WAS WITH ME FOREVER.

when im still in my childhood years..
i got jealous everytime we had activity at school and
i had no one with me.
when all my classmates are with their m0m.
i remember when i g0t the medal
i've been trying so hard to get and to really
make m0m pr0ud.
i want her to put it in my neck but then
she is not there at all.. ♥

lovelovelove.
xx
x0x0
:)
mwaah.♥♥♥

dAd.

mY dAd.

im hapi seeing my dad being happy whenever
i make him proud of what i just accomplished.
though we don't have that closer relationship,
still i feel connected with him all the time.
i feel guilty whenever i make mistakes that he
sees on me. it makes me feel im not a perfect
daughter he wants me to be and i always feel sorry.

* i want him to see me doing things happily
without regretting wrong decisions in the enD.*
i love my dad so much.
its really hard for a dad to just put her daughter away.
and i always feel that.
and i always want him to feel
i will never disappoint him..
all the expectations he had for me
i want it to happen all succesfully..
being the only girl is just so harD.
and i knew GOD has a perfect pLan.

love u dad,
ur j0y.
♥

♥cHurcH♥

in churcH..

i always wwnted to be active in church..
i really wishes still to know how
to play instruments ..
and how i wish i had all gifts and talents..
but then i enjoyed everytime
we are all very happy
laughing till no tomorrow..
all the talks..
meaningfuL.
so wonderfuL..

*i had all the best-est people
in the whole widE worLd!!..
i love them!!!
i know all my friends in our church
will still be my friends till the end of timE..
♥
my hapineSs.

thanks GuysS..
:)
bexborougH.

br0s.

my tw0 brotheRs..

even if we sometimes get into fights,
im hapi i have them in my life.
that sometimes it feels awkward that
they do silly things on their own
forgetting what other people
might say.
the bond that we build is not as high
as my closest friends are
but we do love each other.
we get high tempered
and throwing damn words but still
they respect and love as a girl is.

but then,
i wish i had a little sister.
a cute little sister that i can always
count on.
we can play together dolls..
be with each other
always and forever.. :)

loveLy.
bexborougH.